I still think of you everyday. You're still the closest thing to perfection that I've found yet. You still haunt my dreams. I miss you. Ugh. I fucking hate this. Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind procedure please.

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Dear Jamie, the problem with pushing people away is you can't just use them and come back to them when you're ready. You need people.

Sincerely, Jamie

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Thoughts. Thinking. They're always dangerous. I want to go back. When I sat in a bathroom crying and hating my marriage for never being perfect. For always wanting more.. Why can't I feel that again? Why do I feel all this guilt? How do I break out of this rut? I was unhappy. Anger. Cursing. Unnecessary drama. Resistance. The whites!!! The beige ( Read more... )

Thoughts. Thinking. They're always dangerous. I want to go back. When I sat in a bathroom crying and hating my marriage for never being perfect. For always wanting more.. Why can't I feel that again? Why do I feel all this guilt? How do I break out of this rut? I was unhappy. Anger. Cursing. Unnecessary drama. Resistance. The whites!!! The beige ( Read more... )

There has to be a name for what it is I'm dealing with. The last 4 months have just been a big mash up of text messaging, jogs, tanning, lady gaga songs, and eating only half of my meals. I'm all for the weight loss and eating less, but I'm starting to think something is not right. I've had my thyroid checked twice now. It's not that. I could blame ( Read more... )

I'm starting to realize that people who spend so much time trying to blend in with their surroundings are just hiding that they are dumb and have nothing interesting to offer. Being reserved is just holding out for nothing. I don't think I care much for that lifestyle anymore.

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The freedom I escaped.
The freedom I didn't know I had.
Is the freedom I crave.
I just want to be free.

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The heart and mind can be a tricky thing when the 2 don't seem to be in sync. Just when you think you have it all figured out. One little thing comes along and scatters all the pieces on your board game. Sometimes I think about alternate universes and if there really is another one of us somewhere else living out a different choice we could have ( Read more... )

Friends :)

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You're soooo vain

You probably think this post is about you

Don't you
Don't you
Dontchoooo

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